Thursday, May 29, 2008

Awake



i never thought that Jessica Alba would take on such a role... i would like to share more about the movie, but i don't want to be a spoiler this time and hope that whoever that is reading this will give it a try. something personal from me, just expect something that you don't usually expect from Jessica Alba.

the best part of the movie is when everything turned dark for the main character, her mum was there to lit a cigarette, to gave him the only light in the pitch black darkness. it is very true, at least for me. cause when everything around me turns dark (which it seldom happens), when i can see nothing and lost my sense of direction, i can always count on my mum to give me the only light in the dark.

the light might not be strong, it flickers, and sometimes, it is even too dim to see anything, but still, it never leaves me. that's the beauty of it. sometimes, i mean, most of the times, she doesn't agree with what i do, with the decisions that i make, but still, the light shines before the path that i choose. i'm not sure if this happens to other people, but i thank God that i'm well aware of the light that has accompanied me through this world of darkness since the day i was born. i would never have made it here without the weak, dim and yet reliable light. one day, i will outshine this light, so that it can have a rest and let me shine through all the rest of her way......

Sunday, May 4, 2008

another touching story...

曾经,

是否有一朵这样的红玫瑰在你心中绽放。

曾经,

是否有一个美丽的名字成为你夜夜梦中的呓语。

曾经,

是否有一份深深的爱让你大喊:“为了你,抛弃天下又何妨?”

也是曾经,

愚蠢的丘比特、糊涂的月老只将心动给了其中的一个。

也是曾经,

三个字:“我爱你!”换来的却是四个字:“我不爱你!”

也是曾经,

承受爱一个人的痛苦却始终得不到被一个人爱的幸福。

…………

有这样一个故事(本故事纯属虚构,如有雷同,纯属巧合,请不要对号入座):

男孩在见到女孩的第一面的时候就发觉自己爱上了她,这绝对不是一见钟情的爱。

单相思是很苦的,男孩很聪明,他决定告诉她,告诉她自己的想法。

男孩知道有可能得到的是拒绝,但是至少也许可以作为一段美丽爱情的开端……

认识的过程很平常,很普通,却很惬意,不过在深夜电话中聊天真的可以拉近心与心的距离吗?

爱情,很容易让人冲昏头脑,对,的确是这样的……

表白,意外的被接受了,是该高兴吗?

时间,带来了失败的开端。美丽的爱情宣言变成了愚人节的玩笑…………

直到男孩清醒之后,才发现了这残酷的事实……

接着来的,自然是厌烦与拒绝,伤心与痛苦……

“这就是所谓的没有缘分!”

女孩这样说。

“爱一个人不需要任何理由,同样,不爱一个人也是……”

女孩还这样说。

“我只知道我会永远永远的这样爱你,永远永远的为你守侯……”

男孩这样回答。


故事没有结束……


男孩这样说也这样做,只希望能够用自己的付出去打动一颗不属于自己的心。

还有什么叫痴情吗?

女孩的每个举动、每个变化都会牵动男孩的心。

还有什么叫迷恋吗?

梦中的呓语、酒醉的低吟,都离不开女孩的名字。

还有什么叫疯狂吗?

感动!

男孩得到了女孩的感动!

还有歉疚!

男孩永远无法得到女孩的爱。

丘比特的恶作剧?月老的童心?

制造了两个人这样的关系。

男孩完全不计较回报的付出、不计较目的的爱永远都只能得到感动和歉疚。

“如果你给我一个机会,你会知道我对你的爱有多深。”

“好,我可以做你女朋友,但我却不能做到爱你。”

“如果你能爱我,我可以用我的一切去换。”

“你知道这是……不可能的……”

女孩哭了,男孩想哭,却忍住了,他知道了自己该做什么。

让自己心爱的人伤心,比让自己伤心要更痛苦十倍。

爱一个人,无论用什么方法都要让她幸福,让她快乐。

第二天,男孩变了……

没有了以往的痴情,没有了以往的眷念,也没有了以往的疯狂。

男孩以后再也没有去找过女孩,甚至再也没有说过一句话……

仿佛这段故事就随着太阳的升起而结束……

…………


故事还是没有结束……



有人说,时间能冲淡一切,但也有人说,时间能证明一切。

三年后,

当男孩和女孩即将结束学业,各奔前程的时候,

当男孩和女孩分离后也许再也不能相见的时候,

当女孩仿佛想到做点什么的时候,突然听到男孩进了医院的消息。

“为了救一个小孩,被汽车撞了,还没有度过危险期……”医生如是说。

女孩哀求着想要见他,医生不同意。

“那求你转告他让他一定要坚强地活下来,因为我……我发现我非常的爱他……”

医生在昏迷不醒的男孩耳边如实说了这句话。

医生仿佛看到男孩皱紧的眉头微微地松开了,嘴角泛起一丝笑意……

但是不幸,第二天早上,随着太阳的升起,一个灵魂同时离开了它的躯体开始飞升……

女孩又哭了,男孩没有哭,临死的时候,嘴角泛着微微的笑容。

在墓碑前,女孩仿佛听到男孩的声音:

“我希望能永远看到你快乐幸福的笑脸……”

此后,女孩一直快乐坚强地生活,再也没有伤心过。

也许在别人看来,故事的结局未免不太完美,并不圆满,

但是不正如男孩所希望的,女孩得到了幸福与快乐。

也许曾经你的生命中也深爱着这样一个人,

由于种种原因,你们却永远无法在一起,

你怎么面对的呢?

不过,请记住:


爱一个人,

无论用什么方法都要让她幸福,让她快乐。

即使,要你选择放弃。


a friend of mine emailed me this story a long time ago, maybe a few years back, but i still keep it in my computer...

i like this story very much, especially because that it reflects the cruelty of this world, that actually, in reality, a lot of stories do not have happy endings as we would expect they would. that's down to earth, real life...

and to give up on the one you love takes courage, great courage indeed. every one has the courage to love, as deeply as they wish, as they hope, as they can, but in the end, do you have the courage to give it all up, for the sake of your love for her?



i hope i would have the courage to do so... i will try...

Friends

"The choices you make about the people you invite into your life are the most important choices you can make, and you need to make sure you're choosing these people based on the right reasons."

i heard many people say that it is always better to have more friends. 多一个朋友,就多一个出路。but is that true? i have wondered this for quite some time, and yet to come up with a conclusion, until today, when i come across the sentence above from horoscope for Virgo on 4th May 2008.

first of all, i don't think that it's good to befriend whoever you can find. friends influence you. if you got the wrong types of friends, then you are playing with fire. some day, you might end up becoming like one of them or becoming into someone that you wouldn't wish to become. it might not be something bad, but you can just know that you are not your old self anymore. you have changed for the better or worse, only you, yourself can tell.

then, i think it's not appropriate to make friends for a reason, a specific one. just be friends for the sake of being friends, simple. argh, this is complicated. people tend to think in a much complicated manner when they grow older. some think that it's a sign of getting more mature, but complicating things always makes things tough to handle.

so, back to the topic, just choose your friends properly, and treasure them, if they deserve it. imagine a photo album, with your own photos only. surely, it's not as nice as and as colorful as a photo album with you+your friends' photo. no one can live without their friends...

Cheers to all my friends. I love you guys ^^

Saturday, May 3, 2008

天灰

如果你不再出现
我的世界还有什么可贵
可惜不够时间
让我们试验什么叫永远

想念变成怀念
心动变成心碎
偏偏还会关切
你最后属于谁

我的天空今天有点灰
我的心是个落叶的季节
我不知道如何度过今夜
所有的灯早已经全都熄灭

如果你从没出现
我会不会觉得快乐一些
可惜残忍时间
总要把诺言一点点摧毁

想念变成怀念
心动变成心碎
偏偏还会关切
你最后属于谁

我的天空今天有点灰
我的心是个落叶的季节
我不知道如何度过今夜
所有的灯早已经全都熄灭




these few days, it has been grey for me. personally, i don't really like grey, but there are times, when it fits just right in, just where it is needed to be. i like grey especially when people use it to describe the area between white and black, the area between right and wrong and the area between good and evil. it is like, this world, will not be as what it is now, without grey. as imperfect as it is, grey defines it just well enough.

i hope i will get through this feeling in a day or two. i hope the grey cloud will clear away, and let the blue sky return to me...

Friday, May 2, 2008

不爱

快阻止 时间倒转
当我们 再次遇见
怎样的表情最适合隐瞒
我依然爱你很深

别再多看我一眼
别试探我真的感觉
我怕忍不住又回头眷恋
你连背影都温柔

不爱 就转身离开
一个人 把回忆推翻
不爱 否定了未来
你恨我 别心软 我也不为难

不容许 谁还牵绊
误解了 别离的美
不可能重来 这遗憾的爱
我们都诚实对待

不爱 就这么离开
一个人 被寂寞牵绊
不爱 承受这悲哀
I LOVE YOU FOREVER 不能说出来

不爱 就转身离开
一个人 我学会忍耐
不爱 承担这悲哀
I LOVE YOU FOREVER 我微笑离开
I LOVE YOU FOREVER 就这样 不爱



All hail, David Tao, the legend...