Sunday, March 23, 2008

which would you choose?

if you have the chance to choose...

will you choose to live with the one you love in hardship and poverty?

or will you choose to live with someone, who loves you, in great wealth and fortune?


it is late night here, with cold weather...about 15 degrees. i just watched a Chinese romance movie. it was sad...

the main character, A went to work with an old man C, to revenge for his friend, B who used to work with C. C hired some mercenaries to get B killed. without knowing the reason for B to be killed, he vowed to take revenge on C. C had two wives, an old one and a younger one, like most of the wealthy old guys back then used to do. on the eve of Chinese New Year, A wanted to kill C, but came to know that C got B killed because B slept with his mistress, M. B and M were in love, as she had no feelings for C. A was in total shock and didn't know what to do. now, here's the serious part. M told A that he was a good guy, like B. both of them treated her well (although C threated her well, but there was no love...not even anywhere close). yes, she had slept with B, she admitted it. and if A would not mind her past, she will follow A wherever he would go, no matter how bad the situation would become. A kept silent. he did fell in love with M, but he still could not accept the fact that his friend, B, slept with his Master's wife and he fell in love with the same gal. and now, she was offering herself to him. only if he would forget about her past, she would love him for all her life and follow him to eternity. as the silence continued, suddenly, M said,
"you're keeping silent. then, it should mean that you are still very concerned of my past...". she took up a sword, and killed herself right in front of A... everything happened too fast. A never spoke a word, knelt down, and killed himself also. i guess he could never have sorted out his thoughts...

what would you do if you were him? you have always believed in your best friend, only to find that he slept with his Master's mistress. then, you found out again, that they were really in love. should you blame him or the Master? you are even more shocked to find the gal that your friend loved is the gal that you are falling in love right now, and she likes you too. she wants to run away with you in condition that you don't mind her past deeds. what would you do? do you think the gal is really in love with you? you used to think so before you knew she was your friend's lover... i really look up to the script writer of this movie...that he can think of such a scenario... i watched the movie from somewhere in the middle. hopefully, i can get the chance to watch the entire movie...

Monday, March 17, 2008

value of Love...

i was taught that you can never get the exact value of something unless you have actually sold the thing.

so, does that mean that we can only know which is our true love after we have lost it? it sounds ironic to me... if i get the logic right...

Thursday, March 13, 2008

should I...or should I not...

i just don't understand... why is it so hard to make a decision??? yeah, some decisions are tough to make, but are they so tough as the need to make a fuss about it to everyone around you?

first of all, how old are you? is this the way you should be handling your own problems?

argh, i'll just get to the point. lack of patience nowadays.

"Do unto people of what you would do to yourself." it's just as simple as that. actually, it's something similar from a quote from the bible. i don't remember where it is exactly, and so, this is just a brief idea of it.

eg. should i make a decision without considering the feelings of the people around me? ok, the question goes like this: do you like the people around you to make decisions without considering your feelings? example again, do you think it's ok for your parents to divorce without considering your feelings? do you think it's ok for your best friends to go to a Hollywood Blockbuster Hit Movie without you? do you think it's ok for your professor to postpone the exam date after you have prepared day and night just because he wants to go for a surprise vacation with his wife? do you even think it's ok for someone to spit in front of you, just to clear their throat?

i hope you get the point. for me, there is no definite answer for this kind of question: should I or should I not. it depends on yourself. if you're ok with it, then vice versa, people will agree to your decision as well. so, usually, psychologically, if a person asks this sort of question, he/she might probably has the answer already, but the little devil inside just confuses up the mind. follow your intuition, follow your instinct, follow your conscience...you're not as bad as you think you are...

Monday, March 3, 2008

Endless Story - Yuna Ito

ENDLESS STORY (English)

Lyrics: D.A.Thomas & ats Translation: Jonathan Wu

If you haven’t changed your mind
Then I want you by my side Tonight

I’m so tired of always having to bluff
Every time I think about you baby, I feel so young
If I could just tell you I miss you
It’s so hard to say I’m sorry

You see, I want to sing this song, not for just anyone
but just for you
An ENDLESS STORY that keeps on shining
Always, I wanna show you, forever and ever

Memories of our time together
this way, they don’t go away

Once I knew that the warmth between us had disappeared,
gentle tears started to spread over my chest
This is not where it ends, I’m missing you
please don’t let go of my hand

You see, I wish I could sing this song, just for you
just one more time
An ENDLESS STORY of undying love
tell me why, please tell me, forever and ever

You see, I want to sing this song, not for just anyone
but just for you
An ENDLESS STORY that keeps on shining
Always, I wanna show you, forever and ever

You see, I wish I could sing this song, just for you
just one more time
An ENDLESS STORY of undying love
tell me why, please tell me, forever and ever