a puppet or a puppeteer

have you ever wondered if you are a puppet or a puppeteer in this world? i can still recall that one of my friends told me that, in this world, if you can't influence others, then you will be influenced by others. in other words, either you are a puppet or you are a puppeteer.

is it possible then for us to be just ourselves? yes, i know that there are other people's lives which will be affected by our decisions, but then, if we take into all the considerations, is there still a part of our decisions that are made for us, ourselves?

sigh, life is just so difficult with decisions that have to be made every day. and what makes it worse is that our decisions will affect those that are close to us. i'm sure we can never satisfy both sides. one side has to give in to the other side. but, which side should give in first? how many times do we have to give in before the other side gives in? if you have the answers to these questions, i'm sure you have been living a peaceful life. cheers to you~~~

Rebound

"...Courage is just well-concealed fear..."

有舍才有得; in order to receive, you must give

from "The Cutting Edge: Going for the Gold":

'To win, you have to be willing to fail.'

from me:

'To love, you have to be willing to be heart-broken.'


but...


how many failures do we need to go through before we shall savour a tiny victory?

how many times do we need to be heart-broken before we finally meet the love of our life time?


no one knows the answer except God.

God, please work your miracle ways on me, for your child has strayed afar. Amen.

你珍惜了吗？

“曾经有一份真诚的爱摆在我面前，但是我没有珍惜；
到失去的时候才后悔莫及，尘世间最痛苦的事莫过于此；
如果上天可以给我个机会再来一次的话，
我会对这个女孩说我爱你；
如果非要在这份爱加上一个期限，我希望是...一万年..."

Right VS Wrong

for nearly 25 years, i've been learning to differentiate the right things from the wrong things.

and for nearly 25 years, i thought that i've been learning more and more, and i thought i've done more right things than the wrong things.

for nearly 25 years, i thought i've gotten more mature by the years, learning from the mistakes and wrong decisions that i made...

but i guess i was wrong. the world is just too big for my tiny, short, little quarter life span would teach me on how to become a decent man...

if it shall be a happy ending, then thank God, i'm still on the right track.

but if it shall be a tragic ending, then... let it be another lesson to be learnt, and may 2009 lay down joy ahead of me...

*i'm in desperate need of your wisdom, Lord. if i would to get some help, now would be the perfect time to lend me a hand here...thank you*