i used to like watching movies. i really liked watching movies. i liked watching movies, because i get strength and enlightenment from them. it's just like a report or a book, there is always a theme or objective that the story line hangs on to. if you pay enough attention to the movie, it's easy to get the theme.
people used to say that all movies have happy endings and they are not realistic. hence, the criticisms. now, people are making it more and more realistic, until to a point that, sometimes, i feel like it is showing a part of my own life. the stupidity of some people, the naked truth behind the iron masks, the fact that bad guys live longer than good guys in a more luxurious way, they all form the elements of recent movies.
just like Shinjuku Incident, it is a pathetic movie. i don't need another damn movie to tell me how life sucks. i don't need another movie to tell me that the world is as cruel as it can be. i don't need another God damn movie to tell me that dying is easier than living, while i am still struggling to live each day through my life!
i got really emotional after the movie. killing your friend whom you call brother by slitting his throat??!! that's so sick. when is it allowed to have such screens on TV or cinemas? why is the movie not showing stuffs that promotes unity instead? yes, you can call that life, one that is really down to earth, but i have already got enough of that shit stuffs in my life!
oh, is this world leading to damnation? does people still believe in God as the master of their lives, or just as someone who created the universe like us playing Lego toys? i know i'm getting far away from the church, and astray from the righteous path. but i still believe that good deeds lead to salvation at the end of the world. in Disney terms, i still believe that the prince and the princess lived happily ever after. the end. what's wrong with that? ain't that is what we are supposed to believe in?
sigh. maybe i need to listen to more sermons from church services. these movies are making me aggressive.
PS: there are good morals presented in this film, but the bad ones just leave a far more deeper impression in my mind. just like Batman, the Dark Knight. nearly everyone preferred Joker over Batman. this is not the way they are supposed to be...in my opinion...
Wednesday, November 11, 2009
Thursday, July 9, 2009
confused...again...
life is all about choosing, about making a choice, about preferring one from all the others that are available...but which one should we choose?
of all those people who come across our lives, who shall we keep to stay around us and who shall we just let to pass by? we don't get to choose our families, but we can choose our own circle of friends, and eventually, our life-long partner.
ever since i left my country, i have been dealing with this dilemma - who shall i befriend. i no longer get to hang around those people who are as "disgusting" as i am...while i was used to have the choice to choose my friends, now, i'm more likely to be the one who's being chosen from. with the dignity of an honorable knight, i bow down to no man nor woman who are less superior than i am. however, as poor as the church mice at the same time, i can no longer hold my head and nose up to stand up to whoever that steps on my tail. what i'm saying here is, my financial status has forbid me to choose my friends as freely as before. i begin to realize that, you "got" to hang around those people with the same status. friends are no longer those people who you can share your secrets with. friends are no longer the people who you trust on at hardest times. friends are no longer the people who are there to share both your sorrows and laughters. friends are just the people that you usually go out with...where is the intimacy and trust that i felt before for my past-friends?
i feel bad for the death of Michael Jackson. this incident led me to a thought. if i were the one to die, who will weep and cry on my funeral besides my family members? i don't mean that i want a very grand funeral and notify every one of my death. but, i just want to feel missed by the persons that i loved and cared so much before...
maybe being alone here on the "island" with the largest rock in the world, has made me realize that...it is time to mate...
i mean, it is time for me to start off my own career, get established, and get into the circle of life that i want to belong to. i will now make a list of the friends that would mourn for my death instead of just feel like losing another friend to hang out with...and i hope all of you will find your true friends...
of all those people who come across our lives, who shall we keep to stay around us and who shall we just let to pass by? we don't get to choose our families, but we can choose our own circle of friends, and eventually, our life-long partner.
ever since i left my country, i have been dealing with this dilemma - who shall i befriend. i no longer get to hang around those people who are as "disgusting" as i am...while i was used to have the choice to choose my friends, now, i'm more likely to be the one who's being chosen from. with the dignity of an honorable knight, i bow down to no man nor woman who are less superior than i am. however, as poor as the church mice at the same time, i can no longer hold my head and nose up to stand up to whoever that steps on my tail. what i'm saying here is, my financial status has forbid me to choose my friends as freely as before. i begin to realize that, you "got" to hang around those people with the same status. friends are no longer those people who you can share your secrets with. friends are no longer the people who you trust on at hardest times. friends are no longer the people who are there to share both your sorrows and laughters. friends are just the people that you usually go out with...where is the intimacy and trust that i felt before for my past-friends?
i feel bad for the death of Michael Jackson. this incident led me to a thought. if i were the one to die, who will weep and cry on my funeral besides my family members? i don't mean that i want a very grand funeral and notify every one of my death. but, i just want to feel missed by the persons that i loved and cared so much before...
maybe being alone here on the "island" with the largest rock in the world, has made me realize that...it is time to mate...
i mean, it is time for me to start off my own career, get established, and get into the circle of life that i want to belong to. i will now make a list of the friends that would mourn for my death instead of just feel like losing another friend to hang out with...and i hope all of you will find your true friends...
Sunday, June 28, 2009
Thursday, June 25, 2009
回到过去
一盏黄黄旧旧的灯
时间在旁闷不吭声
寂寞下手毫无分寸
不懂得轻重之分
沉默支撑跃过陌生
静静看着凌晨黄昏
你的身影
失去平衡 慢慢下沉
黑暗已在空中盘旋
该往哪我看不见
也许爱在梦的另一端
无法存活在真实的空间
想回到过去
试着抱你在怀里
羞怯的脸带有一点稚气
想看你看的世界
想在你梦的画面
只要靠在一起就能感觉甜蜜
想回到过去
试着让故事继续
至少不再让你离我而去
分散时间的注意
这次会抱得更紧
这样挽留不知还来不来得及
想回到过去
思绪不断阻挡着回忆播放
盲目的追寻仍然空空荡荡
灰蒙蒙的夜晚睡意又不知躲到哪去
一转身孤单已躺在身旁
想回到过去
试着抱你在怀里
羞怯的脸带有一点稚气
想看你看的世界
想在你梦的画面
只要靠在一起就能感觉甜蜜
想回到过去
试着让故事继续
至少不再让你离我而去
分散时间的注意
这次会抱得更紧
这样挽留不知还来不来得及
想回到过去
沉默支撑跃过陌生
静静看着凌晨黄昏
失去平衡 慢慢下沉
你的身影
又回到过去
an old song from Jay Chow. love it...
maybe because that the future is always unpredictable, we have a perception that the past has always been better. isn't that true? when we are faced with difficulties and trials, we always turn our head to look back into our past, and admire the times when we don't have to go through the problems at hand. the more we do this, the less courage we have to probe into the unknown future.
starting from now on, i will still turn around and have a look at the memorable times every now and then, but i will look at it with great anticipation that i will create something better along the path ahead... the past will be the base of what i will create tomorrow, and it will provide me courage to enter into the later stages of my life. i will make everything that i experienced worthful by going through better experiences. if tomorrow is not better, then i will make it better myself!
时间在旁闷不吭声
寂寞下手毫无分寸
不懂得轻重之分
沉默支撑跃过陌生
静静看着凌晨黄昏
你的身影
失去平衡 慢慢下沉
黑暗已在空中盘旋
该往哪我看不见
也许爱在梦的另一端
无法存活在真实的空间
想回到过去
试着抱你在怀里
羞怯的脸带有一点稚气
想看你看的世界
想在你梦的画面
只要靠在一起就能感觉甜蜜
想回到过去
试着让故事继续
至少不再让你离我而去
分散时间的注意
这次会抱得更紧
这样挽留不知还来不来得及
想回到过去
思绪不断阻挡着回忆播放
盲目的追寻仍然空空荡荡
灰蒙蒙的夜晚睡意又不知躲到哪去
一转身孤单已躺在身旁
想回到过去
试着抱你在怀里
羞怯的脸带有一点稚气
想看你看的世界
想在你梦的画面
只要靠在一起就能感觉甜蜜
想回到过去
试着让故事继续
至少不再让你离我而去
分散时间的注意
这次会抱得更紧
这样挽留不知还来不来得及
想回到过去
沉默支撑跃过陌生
静静看着凌晨黄昏
失去平衡 慢慢下沉
你的身影
又回到过去
an old song from Jay Chow. love it...
maybe because that the future is always unpredictable, we have a perception that the past has always been better. isn't that true? when we are faced with difficulties and trials, we always turn our head to look back into our past, and admire the times when we don't have to go through the problems at hand. the more we do this, the less courage we have to probe into the unknown future.
starting from now on, i will still turn around and have a look at the memorable times every now and then, but i will look at it with great anticipation that i will create something better along the path ahead... the past will be the base of what i will create tomorrow, and it will provide me courage to enter into the later stages of my life. i will make everything that i experienced worthful by going through better experiences. if tomorrow is not better, then i will make it better myself!
Tuesday, May 12, 2009
Policemen are cool...
i can't recall exactly the time, but there had been an incident in UK, where a policemen pushed an old man down, and rumors said that the old man actually died from a heart attack. then, there is another footage which shows a female protester who got hit in the thigh because she was only protesting.
later, people made a huge deal out of these cases. i thought, and i still think, is that necessary? first of all, i don't think the old man died from the fall over. God knows how he died, but i'm pretty sure that rumors had it all gotten wrong. there were people protesting in your area, around you physically, were you still going out for a stroll? or just to see if someone else would get hurt, instead of you? it's like you're actually going to the seaside to witness a tsunami coming towards you! did you think that you had lived long enough? if yes, then you can just bury yourself up. saves us the trouble and it's good for environment. if not, then what the hell are you doing in the middle of a chaotic situation?
and for the female protester, she even sold her story to the newspaper agency for quite a sum of money. after that, she even got interviewed for that. for goodness sake, she is a PROTESTER! do you know that sometimes, protesters can get as dangerous as terrorists? do you need to wait for them to hurt you first, only then you are allowed to defend yourself? so if you can't see if she is armed or not, you still have to go through the procedure to check her whole body first, in the middle of a protest? did you guys see how aggressive she looked in the footage?
i don't understand the world nowadays anymore. those policemen are trying their best to withhold a protesting crowd. anyone of them might get hurt by the protesters. a policeman got hurt during his duty VS a protester got hurt in her protest. who do you think deserves to be hurt more? pleas stop thinking if you are the protester that got hit. someone please think in the position of the policeman. in the protest, you were outnumbered, and surrounded by furiously excited protesters. are you going to ask them to settle down, with PLEASE?
and let's say, if the policeman does got hurt by the female protester, is he going to show the world the footage that he was allegedly assaulted by a anonymous female protester which is recorded by his colleague who just happen to record the event during their duties? he might got disabled, or even killed, leaving his old parents, wife, kids on their own since then. is the world going to be as pitiful on the victims as compared to the assaulted female protester? is the news agency going to buy his story of bravery and is his family members going to get interviewed on tv? probably, but definitely not as probable as the female protester who got all the fame and cash.
honestly, think it through. the policeman ended up getting sacked. do you still want to be a policeman after you read this news? a research also shows that on average in Australia, there are more policemen getting assaulted on TGI Friday nights compared to earlier times. with their salary, do you think you are going to become a policeman with all the risks? even if you are given the best insurance policy included in your work, many of us still wounldn't choose to become a policeman. we have our reasons to do so, that's not difficult to understand at all. but have you actually thought of those who undertook all the risks to protect the neighborhood from protesters and criminals and etc who would endanger our normal, daily lives?
CHERISH! before your adrenaline rushes up to your head again, take a deep breath and think carefully, who are the trouble makers? who are protecting you? who are doing the jobs that you don't like to do? i don't want to end up carrying a gun with me to protect myself here in Australia, because all the policemen resigned their jobs as their jobs are just too tough to handle. i hope the day that you wish the policeman will be back on the streets, holding off the angry mob won't come...
later, people made a huge deal out of these cases. i thought, and i still think, is that necessary? first of all, i don't think the old man died from the fall over. God knows how he died, but i'm pretty sure that rumors had it all gotten wrong. there were people protesting in your area, around you physically, were you still going out for a stroll? or just to see if someone else would get hurt, instead of you? it's like you're actually going to the seaside to witness a tsunami coming towards you! did you think that you had lived long enough? if yes, then you can just bury yourself up. saves us the trouble and it's good for environment. if not, then what the hell are you doing in the middle of a chaotic situation?
and for the female protester, she even sold her story to the newspaper agency for quite a sum of money. after that, she even got interviewed for that. for goodness sake, she is a PROTESTER! do you know that sometimes, protesters can get as dangerous as terrorists? do you need to wait for them to hurt you first, only then you are allowed to defend yourself? so if you can't see if she is armed or not, you still have to go through the procedure to check her whole body first, in the middle of a protest? did you guys see how aggressive she looked in the footage?
i don't understand the world nowadays anymore. those policemen are trying their best to withhold a protesting crowd. anyone of them might get hurt by the protesters. a policeman got hurt during his duty VS a protester got hurt in her protest. who do you think deserves to be hurt more? pleas stop thinking if you are the protester that got hit. someone please think in the position of the policeman. in the protest, you were outnumbered, and surrounded by furiously excited protesters. are you going to ask them to settle down, with PLEASE?
and let's say, if the policeman does got hurt by the female protester, is he going to show the world the footage that he was allegedly assaulted by a anonymous female protester which is recorded by his colleague who just happen to record the event during their duties? he might got disabled, or even killed, leaving his old parents, wife, kids on their own since then. is the world going to be as pitiful on the victims as compared to the assaulted female protester? is the news agency going to buy his story of bravery and is his family members going to get interviewed on tv? probably, but definitely not as probable as the female protester who got all the fame and cash.
honestly, think it through. the policeman ended up getting sacked. do you still want to be a policeman after you read this news? a research also shows that on average in Australia, there are more policemen getting assaulted on TGI Friday nights compared to earlier times. with their salary, do you think you are going to become a policeman with all the risks? even if you are given the best insurance policy included in your work, many of us still wounldn't choose to become a policeman. we have our reasons to do so, that's not difficult to understand at all. but have you actually thought of those who undertook all the risks to protect the neighborhood from protesters and criminals and etc who would endanger our normal, daily lives?
CHERISH! before your adrenaline rushes up to your head again, take a deep breath and think carefully, who are the trouble makers? who are protecting you? who are doing the jobs that you don't like to do? i don't want to end up carrying a gun with me to protect myself here in Australia, because all the policemen resigned their jobs as their jobs are just too tough to handle. i hope the day that you wish the policeman will be back on the streets, holding off the angry mob won't come...
Monday, March 2, 2009
when love doesn't turn out to be love eventually...
“我喜欢你，所以我是累了一点，可那对我绝不是伤害……”
“如果你真的爱过他的话，就感谢能给你这种感觉的他；那样的话，就不会像现在这样伤心难过了……”
~~unknown Korean drama~~
“如果你真的爱过他的话，就感谢能给你这种感觉的他；那样的话，就不会像现在这样伤心难过了……”
~~unknown Korean drama~~
Sunday, March 1, 2009
a puppet or a puppeteer
have you ever wondered if you are a puppet or a puppeteer in this world? i can still recall that one of my friends told me that, in this world, if you can't influence others, then you will be influenced by others. in other words, either you are a puppet or you are a puppeteer.
is it possible then for us to be just ourselves? yes, i know that there are other people's lives which will be affected by our decisions, but then, if we take into all the considerations, is there still a part of our decisions that are made for us, ourselves?
sigh, life is just so difficult with decisions that have to be made every day. and what makes it worse is that our decisions will affect those that are close to us. i'm sure we can never satisfy both sides. one side has to give in to the other side. but, which side should give in first? how many times do we have to give in before the other side gives in? if you have the answers to these questions, i'm sure you have been living a peaceful life. cheers to you~~~
is it possible then for us to be just ourselves? yes, i know that there are other people's lives which will be affected by our decisions, but then, if we take into all the considerations, is there still a part of our decisions that are made for us, ourselves?
sigh, life is just so difficult with decisions that have to be made every day. and what makes it worse is that our decisions will affect those that are close to us. i'm sure we can never satisfy both sides. one side has to give in to the other side. but, which side should give in first? how many times do we have to give in before the other side gives in? if you have the answers to these questions, i'm sure you have been living a peaceful life. cheers to you~~~
Thursday, January 15, 2009
Wednesday, January 7, 2009
有舍才有得; in order to receive, you must give
from "The Cutting Edge: Going for the Gold":
'To win, you have to be willing to fail.'
from me:
'To love, you have to be willing to be heart-broken.'
but...
how many failures do we need to go through before we shall savour a tiny victory?
how many times do we need to be heart-broken before we finally meet the love of our life time?
no one knows the answer except God.
God, please work your miracle ways on me, for your child has strayed afar. Amen.
'To win, you have to be willing to fail.'
from me:
'To love, you have to be willing to be heart-broken.'
but...
how many failures do we need to go through before we shall savour a tiny victory?
how many times do we need to be heart-broken before we finally meet the love of our life time?
no one knows the answer except God.
God, please work your miracle ways on me, for your child has strayed afar. Amen.
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