Friday, September 12, 2008

OUTPUT never equals INPUT

in my previous post, i complained that what you get is not what you worked for...i think it is very true. today, i reviewed this again from a Mathematical point of view, or rather, from an Engineer's point of view, since i did graduated as an Engineer, no point wasting my engineering's knowledge... ... ... ... okok, just let me brag about something, alright? next week is exam week, i'm feeling quite tensed here =.=

from an Engineer's point of view, in a practical case, the output will never equal to the input, simply because there is nothing in this world that works with a 100% efficiency. hence, that's it, hehe.

actually, that is just the entree for this post. today, from an incident, i discovered a reason behind the imperfect equation of input=output, that is, what you give is not the exact amount of what the other end receives. thus, no matter how much you give, you cannot demand for same amount or similar amount in return. a very typical example would be a family who runs a family business. most of the times, the parents would not have much time to spend on their children. they provide every material thing that they can afford: the best schools, the best tuition, the best cars, the latest trendy handphones, and etc. but, in the end, can they expect the children to be very obedient? obviously not.

i'm pretty sure that most of this type of parents don't get that, what they give might not be what their children want, and what they give might be not what their children need also. now, from the Contract Law's point of view, a contract exists only when one party does or provides something favorable to another party and the other party pays or do something in return. if what the parents give to their children is not what they want, then how could they expect anything in return? even the Barter System doesn't work like that, right?

sigh, i just want to stress that, apart from providing so many things which you think someone else would like, it is far more better to be at place when you are needed. what is the use for you to be able to give the whole world to me, when you can't be by my side when i needed you most? yes, all the things would make me lead a better and more comfortable life, but i can do without that, and i won't feel "terribly" unhappy without it either. on the other hand, when i need someone to be by my side, to give me support, and all that i have is myself only, what you did, everything that you did before would then mean a lot less, maybe they would even mean nothing anymore... ...

do you believe if i say that i'm practising my writing skills for my law exam next week? i have to write on average 10 full pages in about 3 hours' time. sigh, this is a bad time for exam. no mood to study at all, and it's open book test... ... studying is tough... ...

Monday, September 8, 2008

confused...

i think, i've never been more confused in my life before...

it used to be that, what you get is what you worked for. but now, is this still true? is it still true that you can get what you worked for? i'm tired...very tired. i don't know how to fit into this society anymore. it's not easy to be someone unique, someone different, as we all know, but contrary, it's not easy to be someone normal too.

since a few years ago, i've given up all my big dreams, just trying to be normal, trying to lead a nobody's life. well, normal as in, study, graduate, find job, get gf, marry, have kids, then grow old and die. i don't ask for big house, big car, big bike, big boobs..., or any luxurious things. just get it over with, get it done, get me to the end of my life... don't torture me anymore.

"with great responsibilities comes great sacrifices..." no, i don't want great sacrifices, and i don't want great responsibilites either, just...argh, fastforward... don't test my patience anymore... am i just whinning? does everyone has to go through something similar as me? is this the only way to live a life?

people tend to advice, don't try to compare all the time. am i comparing? gosh, i don't know. i'm so confused...

enough whinning... tomorrow is on its way, without any delay. better give myself a few slaps on the face and move on... and guess what, i just realized, you don't need to have great responsibilites to have great sacrifices. i think it should be "with a kind heart comes great sacrifices". nowadays, only those who try to be on the good side will have to do great sacrifices. agree?